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12.31.14 after 2pm

I scooted to Wg's and got my script filled! I had to show my ID for the pain med and they said it was expired! They filled it anyway but said they would only do it this one time! I took a pain med immediately, hopefully it helps! Cruised the pain med isle and got more Anbesole   and something else that said relieves tooth pain! This pain is really unbearable! I like to think I've got a high tolerance for pain too but tooth pain to me is miserable! I used up all the funds on the gift card the beautiful lady Jan got me as a Christmas gift! She is one of a kind! She knew exactly how she could help me! You can  see why I consider her as my true bestest friend, love you Jan ;)!

12.31.14 after 10am

KJ was over and I got in touch with Lux dental to make an appointment to get this GB tooth pulled! They can't do it until Friday of next year! I've gutta get to Wg's to get my script filled for an antibiotic and pain! I also gutta get some more Anbesol, that is the only thing I get any kind of relief from this awful pain! 

12.30.14 after 4pm

I've been to hics and from hics to my dentist! At the dentist they took xrays and came to the conclusion I need a root canal!My other option is pull the tooth!  Normally I'd say "go ahead and pull it" but I've had too many teeth pulled from that quadrant I don't know if I should have another pulled! To have the root canal done I'd be paying out of my own pocked for! Mass health don't pay for  root canals!

12.29.14 around 6pm

I've been dealing with my tooth pain by applying anbesol  every hour! Tooth and gum pain is by far the worst kind of pain to deal with! Michaela was over and cleaned my whole apartment up! Lisa called and asked me if I wanted some pizza that her mother made! 

12.29.14 around 1pm

I found the small tube of Anbesol I got just after I moved to Holbrook! I remember I always had something to help with tooth pain when I lived in my many other apartments! That was the first challenge now to get it out of the wrapping and open the tube! With my severe spasticity its a real challenge but with the stadigeies I've had to learn and remember to employ I got it done! I guess I'm giving myself a big pat on the back! First remembering that its no fun having tooth pain and remembering how I got by in the past to making sure I've got all I need to making an appointment with my dentist to figuring how to get there and do other things on the same day! This tbi survivor has got everything under control! I find it hard to understand why some people didn't think I was ready to live on my own! I even do better than when I lived in N.Quincy! I'm not trying to raise a teenager  and that's what I said to those who didn't have faith in the power and will of Ja…

12.29.14 around 11am

I'm in so much pain its so hard to even think! I called and made an appointment to get this pain relieved but that took so many calls! I had to first call the dentist then "the ride" and because of my brain injury I loose track of what I'm doing as I'm doing it! I called "the ride" to book a trip for tomorrow and I forget what time I need to be there! Then I've got other trips for tomorrow too so to try and explain what I need is hard and I loose track of exactly what order I need the trips in! This survivor is on brain overload! I think I've done everything right but that's what living with traumatic brain injury is like for me anyway, I'm just not sure of anything :(! This is what I've done. Tomorrow I go from home to hics, from hics to Lux dental to be there at 12.30pm, from there to home pick up at 1.30pm! I had to call Lux dental back to make sure my appointment was at 12.30pm cause with my concentration  being altered so much a…

12.26.14 around 8pm

My I  phone there was an update! I followed the instructions and new apps come up! One new app was labeled Jamie Oliver's recipes!  I said now wait, I know a Jamie Oliver! Jamie, what don't you have your hands into :)?

12.28.14 around 6.50pm

Today I've taken a confidence building scoot to Wg's and the store  :)! The power gauge on my scooter didn't budge past fully charged the whole scoot ! :) I think it's safe to assume these interstate batteries are "the kind"! I got home and had to do laundry! I got all my laundry DONE for the week :)! I've still got my issues when it comes to putting it all away after I get it from the dry :( ! The machines were hungry, they ate at least three socks! Good thing I went to Wg's this morning cause I was able to get some quick and easy dinnas! I'm beginning to think tooth aches are contagious! A fb friend was battling one and now I'm getting some pain in my lower right quadrant! I've battled periodontics all my life! That's where the bone in your jaw that holds your teeth in rots away! I used to get what's called a deep cleaning every year when I had dental ins. Mass health pays for regular cleanings but won't pay for a deep cleani…

12.27.14 after 6.45pm

My brain has been on overload all afternoon! I've lived on the south shore of Mass all my life! Growing up in Scituate, getting married moving to Marshfield,wanting to start a family moving to N.Weymouth, buying a house in Quincy,(Squantum), getting divorced moving a bunch of different apartments but all in Quincy! I don't think I'm ready or willing to leave the south shore right now but I'm gonna research everything I owe myself that much! I feel so safe where I am now! I'm not a burden to anyone but myself :)!

12.27.14 around 11.15am

This tbi survivor is on brain overload! It's been suggested to me I relocate to move closer to my immediate family, my daughters and grandson! I've really got nothing holding me here but there is a lot to think about it's not like I can just one day say "I'm moving to New Hampshire" ! The pluses are something to consider, be closer to my girls which is the only reason I'm even letting it take up any space in my brain. I've got to weigh all the pluses  and minuses together before I even research what's available in Concord NH for someone who is mentally disabled !  

12.22.14 around 8.15pm

Oh yeah, I also said to Lisa the tablet has skype! She read that Bri said now Charlie can  Skype with his Gramps so I had to open up my Skype program and I had no clue as to what my logon info is! Now my user name is in my puter and I use the pw I'm using now when I forget my pw! Lisa is a real good friend. She gives me shxt when I'm not wearing my lifeline pendant! Tomorrow I've got hics to go to!

12.22.14 after 7.30pm

Lisa was up and I was able to show her the pics of my grandson working with the tablet I got him! She is dealing with depression and it is little things like this that can put a smile  on her face even if it lasts only a second its a moment she's happy:)! 

12.22.14after 5.30pm

Michaela was over and cleaned my whole apartment! I gave the gift card I got for her too! I got a land line from Allie from the YMCA saying the partnership program is closed on Wednesday so I canceled my trips right away cause with my memory I could forget!

12.22.14 after 3.45pm

I just now got all showered and dressed for the day! I was dealing with a total and complete lack of motivation today! Now Michaela, my homemaker is coming at 4pm!I can't think of anything special I need so just a cleaning. I'm glad I made it to D&D's cause I wanted to give her a small Christmas gift! Just a gift card to D&D's.

12.22.14 around 10am

I don't know why or what it is but this survivor has a total lack of motivation on Mondays 0:( ! I canceled doing the YMCA today cause I couldn't get myself motivated to do anything but I did make a pot of coffee:)!

12.21.14 around 9.30pm

I got all my laundry done today! I get so pooped after putting it all away! I made a quick and easy dinna, got a hoot from Bri sending pics of Charlie working with the tablet I got him :)!Lisa came over and we hung out for a while! Tomorrow I've got the YMCA to swim laps then do my weight training! I'm thinking Friday I leg pressed 330lb 12 reps, why not do 340lb! Then I'll just be 10lb from my goal of 350lb! I've got to be able to do 12 controlled reps though! I'm sure these old hockey legs can do it :)!

12.21.14 around 9.30pm

I think its so important in this day and age to get the youngsters started as young as possible with technology! That's why I bought this tablet for my grandson :)!

12.21.14 after 3.30pm

I just had a confidence building scoot to D&D's and the store! These new batteries seem so much better than the last ones I purchased! The last ones the power gauge would tend to fluctuate when I would go up Technical park drive! These ones didn't make it move past fully charged the whole scoot! I wouldn't  hesitate one bit about scooting to Wg's now! Now I gutta do laundry UGG!

12.21.14 around 11am

Today I've got to at least scoot to the store and if the roads and sidewalks are okay after last nights storm scoot to D&D's to finish off my Christmas shopping! Then I gutta do my laundry ugg! I put my new batteries in my scooter yesterday that will be a great test for them :)!

12.20.14 before noon

I got mail from changing the estimated arrival date of  Charlie's tablet so I immediately forwarded the email to Bri so she would be aware of this! I've got auto fill in my yahoo mail program which is good but I've just got trouble remembering the first characters of Bri's  or any address! These are just things you've got to learn to accept and deal with living with a traumatic brain injury! I try to take it a step further and find a strategy to remember the first characters! It starts with look so I just think of looking for the address then I remember just type look and the rest auto fills in :)! I want to scoot to Wg's today but I'm just real tentative about the batteries in my scooter having enough juice to make the round trip! I've  got some new batteries but there are so many screws to take out to get the battery pack apart then they need charging too! I think today I'll just scoot to the store then come home and with my cordless dr…

12.19.14 after 4.30pm

I've been to the YMCA and I am now leg pressing 330 lb. 12 repetitions! These 56 year old hockey legs are feeling very strong! The thing about is though yes I can feel that it is a lot of weight but I'm doing all my repetitions  with ease!  I'm pushing a lot a weight on the other machines too but I try to gauge my progression on the grip machine and I think today I did 60 lb. with my right hand! That is so significant cause  my brain injury was mainly to my left side of my brain! The left side of the brain controls the right side body functions! I'm working on doing controlled repetitions now but at the moment I just try to get through the exercise!

12.19.14 around 9.30am

I've done my most important task I had to do this morning  that was to make sure Bri received the receipt for the kids tablet I purchased for Charlie from yesterday! She got it :)! This is an electronic devise and I want them to be well insured in case anything goes wrong with it! Something could go wrong with it being shipped and passing through so many hands, there is also the shipping info on there with the tracking # if It doesn't arrive on the promised date! I've got to keep a close eye on my checking account now too! I've spent money on things I need and a few gifts! I won't get paid for weeks and I've only got so much in reserve! That was a great idea I had yesterday to have the driver from "the ride" drop me off at Wg's so I could  get my meds and the rest of my needs! Although I brought the charger with me and plugged my scooter in for almost an hour before I left hics the power gauge was on low power by the time I got home! Th…

12.18.14 around 4.30pm

I've been to hics today and all I can remember is the great help I got from KJ to purchase the kindle fire kids edition and get it shipped to Bri's address before Christmas! I'm happy getting this for my grandson! I'm thinking this will help the young lad grow intellectually :)! 

12.17.14 after 10pm

I saw two wires hanging behind my tv! One I knew was for my stereo receiver but had no idea what the other one is I thought maybe it is the hdmi cable that was connected to my other laptop. It is my first hdmi cable, I connected my newest laptop to it and it works! This is a much heavier cable than I just received! This is the cable JR got for me from Best Buy and I think I paid around $20. for it!  

12.17.14 after 8.30pm

I just watched an episode of full house! The one where Stephaney confided in Jessie about a kid getting beaten by his father! I can't even imagine why a parent would ever hurt their own kid! I raised three kids and yes sometimes I got very angry with them but I NEVER laid a hand on any of my kids!   

12.17.14 after 8.15pm

I was getting frustrated trying to rip apart my old desktop and I didn't want to have that spoil my dinna so I located an hdmi jack on my laptop and plugged one end of the cable I just received so now I know it will work! I may even try to go behind my tv and connect the other end! I should probably wait though but on the other hand I think it is kinda safe! There is really no place to fall behind the tv its just getting there that will be tricky but I CAN do it :)! 

12.17.14 after 6.45pm

I started stripping my old computer and was taking pics with my Iphone as I go but I connected my Iphone to my desktop and I got a message to update my phone so I click on yes update my phone! Now I can't find the pics I took! I know I was able to get the ram out and put it in a sandwich bag but everything else seems to be fighting me! I've got to find out how to release the mother board then everything will come with it! I've gutta stop now and make some dinna :)

12.17.14 around 4pm

Thanks for all the great advice (help) from my fb friends in trying to get that kids tablet order done! Trying to deal with all my issues and get this God blessard tablet ordered and sent to a different address! My concentration is being altered now cause I got another delivery today! First delivery was from UPS that was a hdmi cable! This cable looks nothing like the last one I had but if it works really doesn't matter! I'm gonna have to WAIT to get some help with this though! I don't think it's a good idea for me to go behind my 42" flat panel tv to try and first find where to connect the wire then connect it! Then I got a Fed X delivery of a parallel to usb cable so I can get all my files from my old hard drive with it out of my older computer! Time to start stripping my old computer of all the good and reusable parts! I also was gonna scoot to Wg's but again my battery gauge was fluctuating going up technical park drive! I've got two new batteries mayb…

12.17.14 after 9.45am

Fed-x just delivered a wire I ordered but I've ordered a  few wires, one that will hopefully transfer my data from my old desktop hd to my new desktop and an hdmi cable that will connect my newest laptop to my 42" flat panel tv! Then I can use that as a dvd player too! I just can't tell which one it is! At any rate I've gutta start stripping my old desktop of the essential parts! Ill take out all the ram, processor,  mother board, and anything else I can grab! I'll store them in plastic bags and put them where I know I keep all my computer parts!

12.17.14 around 9.20am

This tbi survivor is feeling very overwhelmed this morning! I want to get this gift from and get it shipped directly to them but I'm having issues changing the address from mine to another address. KJ is back but not making a home visit today, I'm sure I can get help from any of my supports at hics but then the problem of being away from my computer which stores all my passwords! I try to make them all either one of two pw's but I forget which ones I've changed! When I've gutta get a new pw now I know the one I'm using now! I guess what I should do is go to all my accounts and change the pw's now while I'm on my desktop! Nothing is ever easy when you have a traumatic brain injury :(!

12.16.14 around 7.30pm

I've had a great day! The hics Christmas party was lots of fun! The food was fantastic, no need to do dinna I had plenty at the "old country buffet! For desert among other things that found their way to me was this chocolate cake that was really good :) ! Tomorrow I've got trips to and from the YMCA to go! I think I'll stick with the 330 lb on the leg press until Monday then I'll up it to 340lb! Then the following Monday I'll do 350lb! I'll see how that feels and decide if I should attempt to reach 400lb! That would really be something! A fifty six year old man leg pressing 400lb! Not just 1nce but 12 controlled repetitions! 

12.16.14 around 9am

Today I'm going to the "old country buffet" in Walpole Mass. for the hics Christmas party! There is a swap of gifts but I'm not gonna do that this time! I was never able to get out and scoot to D&D's to get my gift cards I always get! I've still gutta get a few maybe I'll have "the ride" drop me off at Wg's on the return from the party! I do need some other stuff too the trick is remembering those needs! It also will be a test for my scooter! I'll bring my charger just in case! I am a little nervous with these aftermarket batteries though! I've gutta be positine though! My scooter will preform admirably!

12.15.14 around 6pm

Michaela, my homemaker was here and she washed all my bed sheets, made the bed, put away my shirts, I just gutta put away my underwear! Bayada is a much better service than the last one I had! When I had a homemaker from the last one do my bed, that is all she did! Michaela did everything, my dishes, countertops, bathroom, vacuumed  all my rugs, floors in my bathroom and kitchen! I gutta make some dinna now, have to be quick and easy at this time! 

12.15.14 still around 9am

I just checked with Walmart online, they say my cable to connect the hard drive in my old computer to my new one should be arriving today! I'll probably miss the ups driver but if its the normal driver, he usually drops my package outside my door!

12.15.14 around 8.30

I've got the YMCA for swimming laps then my weights then my homemaker comes! Its real important I make the YMCA today cause I don't think I made it one day last week! I think I'm gonna need a home visit from someone from hics this week cause although I don't like to admit that I DO need some help with a few things :(! KJ hasn't been in, she suffered a concussion last week :(! That is so ironic, she works with head injury survivors and suffers a mild head injury herself! Get better KJ! KJ and I are working on some things that she can only help me with but I've got some new tasks I could use some help with! I've gutta get my grandson's Christmas present ordered and shipped to Bri's address! That should be easy but I've got to flip through so many pages on amazon .com and my copy and paste doesn't seem to be working well! This brain injury survivor keeps getting confused between the pages! I dislike admitting that but this I believe in an impor…

12.14.14 after 9pm

The option to copy and paste wasn't working on fb for me so I asked to ne mailed an address to my primary email address! Finally got it but c&p is not working throughout my entire system! I needed to copy & paste an address on an order form and I've just got to accept it as part of living with brain injury!Some days I can't get something to work for me, I try to do the same task many different ways but it just doesn't happen! This tbi survivor is way too frustrated to try it again tonight, maybe tomorrow it will go easier for me! Tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA to swim laps then do my weights! My foot is causing discomfort  but I've gutta make it tomorrow! Lisa came up tonight and we had dinna together :)!  

12.1414 around 1.20pm

This brain injury survivor gets so confused very easily! I want to get my grandson a Christmas gift! One that will make his brain develop well! I go by what worked for me as a father raising a boy basically alone from the time he was 12 years old. My son always had the best game systems! I believe they made him think! Then the computer age hit and I made sure he always had a computer! I got separated from my wife and had to move away  from my house but I had a laptop he could use along with his game systems! I got divorced and had a hefty child support payment to make each week then my laptop fried! I didn't want my son to be without, although he still had I think a  play station to work his brain but I didn't think that was enough! I lived basically month to month when I got my commission check! I didn't want him to be one day without a computer so being strapped for cash myself my mother put a computer on her charge card and I paid her back after I received my check! I&#…

12.13.14 around 10pm

I'm trying to remember what went down today but it seems like I'm searching in my brain and thoughts keep rushing by with no chance of recognizing what they are :(! I think I scooted to the store, put value on my laundry card! I think this is the week I have my homemaker wash my sheets so I don't have to do my laundry tomorrow cause Michaela does everything I've got:) ! Last few times she even put all my shirts on hangers too! I've gutta get to D&D's sometime soon cause I give out D&D's gift cards to the people who help me at Christmas time! Oh yeah, I had to put $20 on my card cause the machine wouldn't take my smaller bills :( ! I guess its okay though I'll use it! Made a quick and easy dinna tonight, tomorrow is Sunday, I've guts cook something good! maybe I'll do something alfreado or a cheese turkey bacon turkey burger and try my turkey bacon for breakfast! Its Sunday I'll be good to me :)!

12.13.14 around 3pm

I was gonna scoot to Wg's but I didn't like the way my power gauge was reading going up technical park dr. :(! That is a slight incline and my power gauge would go down to very low power! These batteries I got last time seem to sux real bad! Thankfully I've got two new batteries I ordered from spin life! Maybe later I'll change them over! I'll keep switching them back and forth cause I think if I don't rotate them they will go bad! I've gutta be confident it will do Wg's and back though cause I gutta be able to get my meds! Who knows it may have made it but my foot is killing and I didn't want to have to push it one foot! My Dell tablet wasn't connecting to a wireless network down in Lisa's apartment! I've done all I can do to try and get her on the internet now she is gonna have to get an ISP on her own if she wants to have internet! I showed her net zero for $9.95 per month but this is low income housing and she's on ssi not ssdi, …

12.13.14 around 11am

I figured out a way to get around my freezer congestion! Just take some things out of the box! I took some of my lean pockets out and created more room for things :)! I've just gutta remember what they are! I only got two kinds so they are either meatballs with cheese or chicken parmesan!

12.13.14 around 10.15am

I'm waiting for peapod to deliver my order! They could be here anytime now! I continue to have mouse problems on my desktop! I'm using a mouse now that feels good in my hand but it's not an optical mouse and I'm not using a mouse pad! I guess I'm gonna have to search through my computer stuff to find one of my pads! Peapod just came!

12.12.14 around 6pm

I had an early dinna for me :)! I dad just a pizza for one! Lisa is coming over lata I'm gonna let her use my Dell tablet! I think I've had it in her apartment  before and it connected to one of the wireless networks in this building! Then maybe that will help lift her out of this awful depression! 

12.11.14 after 7.30pm

I was trying to plan ahead so I was studying my online calendar and I'm scheduled to have another colonoscopy next Tuesday! There is no way I can possibly do all the preparation  the day before that so I've got to make sure I call to reschedule tomorrow! That also has issues, I don't know what number to call! I do know he is at Granite medical   so I look that up on the web get a phone number, create a file in notepad! Important task for tomorrow, call granite medical! I didn't  want to go through that again so so soon after the last one anyway but I'm just putting off the inevitable!

12.11.14 after 5.30pm

Today is my brother Ed's B-day, happy B-day! Growing I always associated this day with being two weeks before Christmas!As a kid this was always a happy time of year! I've been to hics today and what I can remember is KC ran a memory group last group of the day! We went over strategies to help improve our memories! What causes our memories to decline and what we can do to prevent rapid decline! One strategy is to use some sort of gadget we can use to remind us of things like a cell phone! I've got my Iphone that also can bring up my online calendar! I always try to remember things without using my tools first! Then use my tools as to sort of back up my mind! That also is a form of exercising my brain! I remember the first gadget I got to give me reminders, an electronic organizer! While still in therapy Cara suggested I get one, although I had to program it every night, that was a great tool early on in my journey! My computer has always been the best tool for just about e…

12.10.14 around 9pm

Lisa was over for a while tonight cause I told her about head injury Jane and she wanted to see some :)! I told her that's what I want to do, create a video about my journey through traumatic brain injury :)!

12.10.14 around 6pm

I never got to trying to prepare or get things ready to do cheese turkey bacon turkey burgers so I've gutta find something quick and easy for dinna tonight! Tonight I've gutta see if my other devises can record videos! After watching head injury Jane I think I have  things I can express that would add to her series or maybe start my own :)!

12.10.14 around 3pm

I scooted to the store and it really wasn't bad! I wouldn't say it was a dry scoot but I guess I went at the right time! My scooter isn't doing too bad holding the charge but it did move slightly from fully charged! I guess the real test would be to do a scoot from here to Wg's and back! I'll do that after it's been charging overnight though! With my foot causing me so much discomfort  and the weather issues the last thing I want is to have to push my scooter anywhere! I've got some time to plan tonight's dinna . I think I will GF a turkey bacon cheese turkey burger on whole wheat  bread :)!

12.10.14 after 1.35pm

I've placed my Walmart order for this month! I got a salt shaker,hdmi cable so I could connect my laptop to my 42" tv and use that as a dvd player! I could also use my tv as a super large monitor :)! I've still gutta place a peapod order but I've got plenty of food so that will wait but I do need to take a wet scoot just to the store.

12.10.14 around 12pm

I've paid all my bills for this month except the IRS! They can wait! Between my child support payment and taxes I only got a little over $100 in my weekly salary check when I was working for Giant Glass! I had to claim three dependents too otherwise there wouldn't be enough after taxes to make my cs payment! See there are many reasons why I got in trouble with the IRS! I had made a deal with them to pay an extra $150 per month before my coma then my accident! I defaulted on that deal and had to hire a lawyer to strike another deal with them! This time it costs me $377. a month! That's a far cry from $150 but I'm doing very well sustaining my payments! I haven't missed a payment and I always pay them last! I had my normal issues navigating the Mass commonwealth site! They don't make it easy to find the right link to choose to pay my Mass health premium!  I was able to finally choose the right link! A lot of hit and miss thankfully I don't know how to give up…

12.10.14 around 10am

My ssdi check was deposited in my account overnight :)! That means I've got to pay all my bills! I've already paid myself. I always take all that is over $2,000 and transfer to my savings :)! I've got my monthly Walmart order to complete and my bi monthly peapod order to do! This tbi surviver spends no money frivolously!

12.9.14 around 10pm

I just had a flash back to my career at Giant Glass! The salesman from the distributer I bought most of my autoglass parts from would have done just about anything I wanted him to! He was always asking me to do lunch! Finally I said, take  my whole crew out to dinner every month! We were all taken out to dinner on the Libby Owens Ford charge card :)!

12.9.14 around 6pm

No luck in finding a microphone but I thought-know I can use one of my other devices! My laptop, one of them they all have built in web cams and mics! My tablet has them too! Then if all else fails I've got my Iphone :)! This tbi survivor has worked his brain real well this afternoon :)! Now I gutta make some dinna :)!

12.9.14 around 5pm

I've been working on recording a video but the microphone is not working on my web cam :(! I used to have a separate  mic! Lisa suggested I try my karaoke mic! Great thought but I think the lead is to thick to fit in the jack! All this thinking is a great workout for my brain! Who needs to do crossword puzzles or word searches, my computer gives me all the brain exercise I need :)! I won't give up on this new project but it will be a strain on my balance digging through tons of old computer stuff but as always I'm gonna face this challenge head on :) !  

12.9.14 before 10am

Lisa and I were talking about making a video about Jamie's journey  through  traumatic brain injury! I've been able to research exactly how I can record such a video! The program to use I've found is movie maker! I've started a list of things to discuss too! I don't remember what hospital I was in when I woke up from the coma :( ! I remember all the hospitals I was in but I don't remember  which one I came to life in, can anyone help me to remember?

12.8.14 around 9pm

I've been finding all these videos of personal accounts with traumatic brain injury! Many of the issues the survivors have are very similar to mine but no tbi is the same as another! Yes we all have very similar struggles and issues like short term memory loss! Lisa said I should make a video about my journey through tbi! We are both gonna try tomorrow to create a vid about Jamie's journey with traumatic brain injury :)!

12.8.14 around 8.30pm

My foot is hurting bad again :(! The only thing I've done is make dinna and go down and get my snail mail! I'm told it keeps coming back cause I tend to drag my right foot while walking. I try to focus on lifting my foot up completely but it seems that is not happening :(! I've got the brace that was made for me but that's too uncomfortable to wear! I really need to call them and tell them this! I'm not doing hics tomorrow cause they are going to the south shore mall and I really shouldn't spend any money! My check gets deposited tomorrow and it shows up in my account on Wednesday! That means I do all the things I do when my check comes in! First pay myself then all my bills, make a peapod order, checkout my walmart order! This tbi survivor handles his money very well!

12.8.14 around 6pm

Lisa went to Wg's and got the meds and all the other stuff I wanted :)! I'm so glad I've got such a great friend like Lisa :)! Michaela was here and she cleaned  my entire apartment! I'm lucky I have that benefit! My place is always clean but she does things that can be very challenging for me to do! She washed my washable floors, and vacuums all my rugs ! Every three weeks I have her wash my bed sheets too! I've done all this myself before  and I find it difficult to keep my balance while moving the vacuum  around! As far as washing my sheets, I've done that only one time! It was extremely hard for me to move around my bed and put the clean sheets back without loosing my balance! 

12.8.14 after 3.40pm

My foot feels a little better after staying off it for most of the day! For the rest of the day, I've got Michaela coming at 4pm and Lisa coming with my meds and stuff this super nice lady went to Wg's and picked up for me! I'm so lucky to have a great friend in Lisa! 

12.8.14 around11am

I couldn't do the YMCA this morning cause my foot was just causing me way too much discomfort! When I have a change in my plans I've  got  things I've gutta do to be a responsible person! 1st I've got to call and cancel my trips with "the ride" then call the YMCA to say I won't be in today! I've got to let them know cause I get help on the machines and its conmen courtesy to let them know! I'm not gonna do hics tomorrow cause it was written in my pocket calendar "no hics"! I had forgotten why so I called just to make sure its on for Thursday!  Tuesday they are going to the south shore plaza and I really don't have money to spend there! I'm waiting for my check to get deposited! I've got other things that are much more important for me to spend $ on first! Much to what some think this tbi survivor is super with all of his assets! I've been accused of spending  my money frivolously that all  cause I got Lisa a combination B…

12.7.14 around 9pm

I just got laundry all done! It's just so frustrating after getting it out of the dryer! My hands and arms don't work well together at all! It seems at times they fight against each other! I concentrate on one hand holding a shirt and my other straitening out the shirt then fight to get it on a hanger! I can see why the suicide rate is so high with tbi survivors cause it's real hard to understand why my body doesn't do what I concentrate hard on making those connections in my brain and they just don't connect! Now I gutta make a late dinna!It is a full time job just taking care of myself!     

12.7.14 around 6pm

I called Lisa and asked if she was gonna go to Wg's tonight or tomorrow cause I've got a script that needs to be picked up. She said "Can anyone pick it up"? I called Wg's and asked them and  they said "yes as long as they know your address"! Lisa is gonna pick my meds up for me :)! I needed some other stuff too so she took a list! I need some Centrum silver vitamins for men over fifty and some peanut butter  M&M's! She is such a GREAT friend to me :)! Now I can do the YMCA tomorrow stress free :)! I've still got laundry to do, I'll be doing laundry past 8pm tonight ugg!

12.7.14 around 4pm

I scooted to the store and my battery gauge didn't move from fully charged! I think I could have made it to Wg's and back! I should have cause I get home to find a voice mail from Wg's saying a script is ready to be picked up! I'll see if there is time tomorrow after I get home from the YMCA! They only hold the scrip for 48hrs! Bad weather is supposed to be coming, maybe I'll ask Lisa to drive me there! You know though if there is any way I can do it close to safely, I will! They just called again, a real person! She said I've had a script ready for a couple days now! I've gutta get there tomorrow somehow!

12.7.14 around 10am

Today I've gutta scoot just to the store and do all my laundry! I would like to scoot to Wg's but I'm just worried about my battery life! I'm pretty sure it can do the store and back but I'm a little to nervous to do Wg's and back! They say we are in for some inclement weather so I've got to make sure I'm stocked up on my needs! I get my check deposited on Tuesday so I'm running low on funds! I gutta check, maybe its time to transfer some funds btw my accounts! This tbi survivor is right on top of his limited finances! 

12.6.14 around 11am

Living on a fixed income I've got to be very careful what I spend my money on! Food of coerce is important then I've gutta be able to get places to get it! Peapod is a great resource but you have to have a minimum $60 order! I've gutta be able to get my meds! They are for the most part covered by my benefits, no cost to me but I've gutta be able to get them! Wg's isn't far from here but much too far for me to use my walker and walk! I made a great friend here who drives and has a car but its just me I've got to be able to satisfy all my needs all by myself! That's where my scooter has come in so handy! Then charging issues arise so I find a web site I can get new batteries at! Then my lead to my charger comes apart on me! I research that site for a charger, find one but it costs $75! Whats great about most places you shop online you can put things in a cart and checkout at a later time! I'm gonna have to WAIT until my check gets deposited but I thin…

12.5.14 after 9pm

Lisa was over and we ordered out at Brookville for dinna :) ! I got a large pastrami and swiss cheese sub toasted and she got some kind a yucky vegetarian sub, yuk! My new batteries arrived but I was pulling the charger cord away from the battery pack and the cord came apart! I didn't notice any wires out of place so I straitened it out and plugged it back in! I did notice on the web site they sell a charger cord I'll make sure this is working then when my check gets in think about getting another charger. So many things keep coming up for me to spend my money on and I really want to go to Maine and visit Darcy! I know Darcy understands but I think it sux cause I'd love to go spend some qt with that pretty young lady!   

12.5.14 around 5pm

I've been to the YMCA for my weights and I'm still leg pressing 325 lb! I figure Monday I'll increase it a little to 330lbs! I'm gonna get to 350 lbs in no time :)! I've gutta quickly get changed cause Lisa's coming over and we are gonna order out for dinna :)!

12.5.14 after 8.45am

I've got to get it across to someone who is turning 30 yrs old this year the importance of seeing a doctor regularly! that's where mine is, I asked him yesterday if he would take my son and he can't accept new patients! Kenny just go to the site, check it out, get  the phone number, call them and make an appointment to see somebody! They are a one stop facility with doctors that specialize in just about everything!There is an ent there, cardiologist, everything!

12.4.14 after 8.30pm

I forgot, go figure, I also got a flu shot today! I always  though that would give a trace of the flu but they assured me that won't happen! I asked about the pneumonia shot and he said that's only good if your in your 60's! How about that I'm too young for something:) ! I was weighed today too! I'm now a mere 175 lb! That's 10lb less than I was when I got in my motorcycle accident!

12.4.14 after 6.50pm

I had my pcp write me a script for a med that another doctor I've called and asked to be snail mailed a script for! I explained its been about three weeks since I've done this so he wrote me a script for just a few! I had my  driver for "the ride" drop me off at Wg's today so I could get it filled! I had been using my scooter all day and I was worrying about it running out of juice! I got into Wg's and the power gauge started to show loosing power! So I quickly went about the store picking up my needs then started my cold stressful scoot home! I was just praying it makes it to technical park drive then its all downhill! It made it, I got home and checked the status on the new batteries I purchased from spin life and they still have yet  to ship them:(!

12.4.14 after 5.45pm

I've been to my pcp's office and  he says I'm doing fine! They didn't do the multitudes  of blood work this time though! I scheduled my rides anticipating lots of time in the lab! I had to WAIT a long time for my return trip! I get home and there is a voice mail from another doctor confirming an appointment! I didn't recognize the name so I had to research everything I have to try and match this up so I understand what it is for!I'm having another colonoscopy on the 16th of this month! I did the last one without anesthesia I'd like to be put out this time but they say if I am knocked out I can't take "the ride" to get back home! I just spoke with Lisa and she's gonna check her calendar  to see if she can get me after. I remember the last time it was hell without getting anesthesia!   

12.3.14 around 7.30pm

Tomorrow I've got an appointment with my primary care physician dr.Black. I believe he is one of if not the finest general care doctors around! He was the one back in the early 90's said I suffered from migraine headaches and prescribed me a med that gave me relief! If you have ever had a real migraine headache you know what a relief that was! I also credit him with finding my cancer early too! He always has me get lots of blood work done and knows what tests to do on my blood! I'm gonna bring my scooter charger with me cause I'm gonna have "the ride" drop me off at Wg's so I can get the meds that are ready for me! Going up technical park dr. seems to drain my batteries so this way I'll only have to use that road  going downhill! I just gutta make sure I've got enough juice to make it there!  

12.3.14 after 4.45pm

I've been to the YMCA and I leg pressed 325lbs 12 repetitions and I felt I could do a lot more weight :)! Friday I'll try to do 335lbs! I move very slowly trough all of my reps as to get the most out of the exercise! Slow and controlled! I checked my snail mail cause I couldn't  remember if I did yesterday and there was a survey  about this place in there! Lisa helped me fill it out cause of my writing issues and she is gonna drop in a mail box for me :)! I'm not ready to try my scooter to Wg's yet but I've gutta soon cause Wg's called and said a script was ready! I'm thinking of having  "the ride" drop me off there tomorrow after my dr's appointment! Then I wouldn't have to put such a drain on the batteries going up the hill on technical park drive! If my scooter is still causing me battery issues I'll ask if Lisa will drive me to Wg's :)!

12.2.14 after 6.30pm

I've been to hics today :)! We had one group but most of today was spent on putting up our Christmas d├ęcor :)! I'm trying to set up one of the other survivors with a computer! KJ was working with my old notebook but couldn't get it to connect to a wii fii signal! I've got my netbook to try next, both connected to my wireless network I don't understand why it wouldn't connect to others! The only thing with my netbook is I spilled a drink on it long ago and the keyboards not working! There are many usb ports though right now I've got another keyboard connected up! Taking into consideration these issues I'll let my netbook go for $25.. I firmly believe a computer helps survovors of traumatic brain injury so much and I want to help this survivor to progress! There is another tbi survivor who lives in my building  who is also interested in buying one of my old devises! When KJ brings me back my older laptop I'm gonna offer that to him but I don't kno…

12.1.14 around 2pm

I'm angry with myself! I didn't do the YMCA today cause I let the pain in my toe win :(! Its not working out that causes me pain its the walking to my ride the to the gym then back home that bothers me! Maybe its time to start doing the pool on Friday too! Then I'll have a back-up just in case :)! 

11.30.14 around 8pm

I got all my laundry done then watched the bummer of a Pats game! I believe Rodger's ability to move around the pocket was the difference in today's game! Now I gutta make a late dinna! I gutta eat something cause I'm going to the YMCA tomorrow for swimming laps then my weights! If I don't eat I'll be too  low on energy so I'll do something quick and easy :)!

11.30.14 after noon

I've got laundry to do today! I'm WAITING for my batteries for my scooter to be shipped! I got am email saying my order was confirmed and listed a link to track the order but I had to join something with ! They assign you a password in the email and give an option to change the pw by clicking on a link right in the mail! It was impossible for me to remember the pw flipping through pages and my copy and paste didn't seem to work so that was very good to have that option! I tracked my order and they say it hasn't left the warehouse yet! I've got two laundry cards now! My homemaker ended up holding on to it when she did my bed sheets and I needed to do laundry before I learned of this! I got another card from the machine and btw the two cards I've got plenty of funds to do my laundry today :)! 

11.29.14 after 6pm

I just scheduled all my trips for this week online! It wasn't without some challenges though! The changing of the month makes it so I've got to keep changing it on the web site! I've got an appointment with my pcp on Thursday too! I couldn't see 500 congress st in my list of destinations but I could see 700 so at first I chose 700. Then while doing another trip I saw 500! I had to go back and cancel trips to and from 700 then do trips to 500! I'm just really glad they got my online account fixed finally! 

11.29.14 after 4pm

I was gonna scoot to Wg's but again the power gauge on my scooter was fluctuating away from full charge! I didn't want to take a chance of getting stuck! It was having difficulty getting up the ramps to the sidewalks and I had to get off and help it get up a few! I ordered new batteries this time I was able to choose what brand name I want! I picked interstate! I remember that was always a good name in batteries! I'm just happy and lucky I've got the means to be able to purchase them! I should start getting into my Wii game system! I've gutta start playing baseball on it, looks like fun :)!

11.29.14 around noon

Peapod arrived with my order, it seems I was in a fettuccine alfreado  mood when I placed this! I got some ready to nuke chichen fettuccine alfreado! That looks so so good now I'm up in the air about dinna tonight! Fa or ctbtb! I also got my bakery stuff, corn muffins and peanut butter cookies and of coarse D&D's French vanilla coffee along with some fv coffee creamer :)!   

11.29.14 around 10.30am

I'm WAITING for peapod to arrive with my order from S&S! I don't really remember exactly  all the things I ordered but I do remember getting turkey bacon! I know I'll have issues again trying to find space in my freezer for all the items that MUST stay frozen! I'll find a way to make it all work though :)! Later today I'm gonna make a cheese turkey bacon turkey burger on whole wheat bread!

11.28.14 around 2pm

I can't tell you how challenging  it is to deal with these awful tremors!  Yesterday trying to order batteries for my scooter and today completing my 2nd peopod order  for the month! Just trying to hit the right key on the keyboard and move the mouse to click what I want is very frustrating for me! I guess I should go out and try my scooter up the hill on technical park dr to see if these batteries give me any confidence to take a long scoot! Oh peapod  is coming tomorrow btw 10-12 and I have yet to get an ETA on my batteries! I guess I'm also gonna see if the snow  and ice removal is any better this year! 

11.26.14 around 2pm

I just made myself a very little brunch :)! That's a good thing cause I generally just eat one meal a day! This was only a couple S&S English muffins but it was something :)! This was even challenging for me! I've got a toaster just for things like this but me trying to spread margarine on my muffins without knocking them to the floor and trying to calm my tremors down enough so I could get some kind of control of  my hands was tough but I did it :)!

11.26.14 around noon

I got up this morning not feeling well AGAIN so I really couldn't go to the YMCA and concentrate on my workout :(! That's really way too bad cause Allie just called and said they are closed on Friday :(! I didn't have a home visit today either! I need KJ's help to plan a trip using the MBTA's web site to visit Darcy! I've got a booklet that explains how but I tried following it step by step and it just doesn't work for me :(! I'm thinking too maybe I'm waking up feeling lethargic cause I'm out of a med that helps  me stay alert!

11.25.14 around 6pm

I've been to hics today! I'm having difficulty remembering what happened though, go figure :). I do remember we had one group where we discussed  how we can still lead a successful life by using strategies! Like a pocket calendar for dates and times of events and appointments! Some of us like me have writing issues that's where my online calendar helps me! I've always got some kind of device on me where I can excess my online calendar! Weather it be my desktop, one of my laptops, my tablet, then last resort my cell phone! We have got to admit to ourselves we are having issues with something, which can be hard to do, then use are mind to think of ways to  still get the task done! I've always been able to do this sort of thing cause I remember being in therapy and physically trying to accomplish a specific task and if it didn't work the therapist would say "try it another way"! The therapist would suggest other ways I could get the same result then let …

11.24.14 after 6pm

At about 9.30am I got sick! Needless to say I couldn't make it to the YMCA feeling sick to my stomach so I stayed home puking a few times, got some rest, I feel much beta now :)! I had also called bayada home health care to cancel Michaela for today cause I needed to scoot to the store after the YMCA! I started feeling better around noon so I scooted to the store then! My door buzzer buzzes around 4.10pm! I buzz whoever it is and a knock on my door, its Michaela! She never got the message which was good cause the way this "fed" up day went I was home for her now! I get so confused when my days get as "fed" up as this :(!

11.24.14 around 8.30am

I've got the YMCA for swimming laps then my weights! My homemaker is coming at 4pm but I don't know if I'm gonna cancel Michaela or not. The weather report says could be snow coming and I've gutta make sure I've got everything I need cause last year the snow removal around here was pitiful! I think I'm gonna need to scoot to the store and that's more important than Michaela   today :) 

11.23.14 around 8pm

It is a full time job just taking care of myself! I just completed doing all my laundry! It just takes so much out of me! I was transferring the load from washer to dryer and I must have looked awkward cause a man doing his laundry asked if I needed help. I may look awkward doing certain tasks but that's just the way that works for me! I gutta make some dinna but I'm too beat to do it right this moment! I guess it will be a very late dinna tonight! I've gutta have something though, I need to be sure I have energy for tomorrow, YMCA for the pool swimming laps then my weights! I'm gonna leg press 325lbs 12 times tomorrow :)! 

11.23.14 around 2pm

After peapod came I had to go with Lisa to Walmart so she could return the tablet I got for her! She liked it but no internet connection down on the ground floor. I had to go cause I used my card to make the purchase! Then I wanted some things I forgot to get from peapod and I go to checkout and they again say "card denied"! I  remember having trouble purchasing batteries for my scooter too! The bank asked me questions I couldn't remember then they asked "did you try to get something from new something?" Then I remembered it was Nu-life I tried  to get the batteries from! After all this Bs I finally got my card reinstated! Lisa also offered to stop at D&D's but at this point I was too mentally exhausted! Now I'm thinking maybe I should try again to get the batteries! I've gutta stop and clear my head first too much information going through this tbi survivors brain right now to do anything! I think there is a Pats game on today, that will help m…

11.23.14 around 9am

I've got a peapod order coming this morning btw 10am-12pm! I've got to start getting ready at 9am cause its Sunday and that means I trim my beard! I'm feeling very proud of the fact I'm living totally independently! I especially like the fact I'm proving a lot of you wrong! I told you time and time again this would be easier than before my tbi living in N.Quincy cause #1 Im not raising a teenager alone and being a part time parent to two young girls! My tbi does make it challenging at times but I'm intelligent enough to recognize my struggles and devise stadigeies to deal with them! I proved you wrong AGAIN!  

11.22.14 around 5.30pm

This has been an extremely confusing day for this tbi survivor! I'm concerned about my scooter batteries taking a charge so I went online to the place I got batteries before and tried to order them again! I kept getting the message "card denied"! I've got plenty of funds to cover that purchase I don't know why I keep getting this! I check and make sure all the information is correct and still get DENIED! My charger for my scooter has indicator lights on it! One says power the other says charging. The power light would aluminate but not the charging light! I'm thinking that's what happened the last time I needed batteries! I thought I would get a jump on this cause I don't want to be without any transportation again! Then I tried plugging the charger in another outlet and still just the power light is aluminted!   Then I figured maybe its fully charged so I took it down to the parking lot and scooted around some! I brought back up plugged in the charge…

11.21.14 after 5.30pm

My scooter wasn't  reacting in a way that made me feel comfortable scooting to Wg's so I just stopped at the store! They have pretty much everything I need there but I've gutta be able to make it to Wg's to get my meds! It probably could have made it but I didn't need any meds and the store had most of the things I needed except protein shakes! With my scooter issues in mind I made a peapod order this afternoon! I think instead of 1se a month peapod order I'm gonna do a biweekly  peapod order! Tonight I'm going to Lisa's to work on her tablet! It's not connecting to one of the many wireless networks in this building! I'm hoping I can get it connected down there but if nothing else I get to spend qt with the blond babe :)!

11.21.14 after noon

I didn't do the YMCA this morning it seems all I can think of is scooting to Wg's, the items I need and how my scooter will do! My foot is causing me great discomfort too! Next week I gutta make  it all three days! That's the good thing about planning of going 3x a week so if I miss one I've got two other opportunities!

11.21.14 around 9am

I've got the YMCA to go to today! I also need some items at Wg's and with it getting dark out so much earlier I'm wondering if there is gonna be enough daylight to be able to after I get home! I'm also concerned about my battery life! It should be fine but ever since I got these new aftermarket batteries I'm just concerned  they just aren't as good as oem batteries. Then too Lisa and I have been wondering what we're both gonna do on Thanksgiving! Neither of us have heard from any family so we decided to go out for Chinese food! Lisa being a pretty blond babe I naturally want to take her out to dinna and that will cost me too! There are   so many things that occupied this tbi survivor's mind at one time I tend to get overwhelmed easily but I'm holding it together!

11.19.14 after 9.30am

My mind has been wandering as it always seems to do and I've been thinking about all the tbi's I had over the years! My 1st one when I was 5 yrs old! I was about to start kindergarten and we had these old buildings in our back yard in Scituate that the people who lived there before used to have chickens in! We called them "chicken coups"!It was a great place to play growing up but yet very dangerous! They were falling apart and we climbed  all over them, on the roof and all through the inside! One day I was up on the roof and a board I was standing on gave way and I fell through banging my  head on the way down! I got five stiches in my head and old doc Miles said I had a concussion! That was when you used to call the doctor and he would make a house call to you! My long term memory is very much intact!

11.18.14 around 8am

I've got hics today! I still need some things at Wg's though, I'll take my cord to charge my scooter with me and plug it in at hics to insure I don't run out of juice and have my driver drop me off at Wg's on the way home from hics!

11.17.14 after 7.30pm

I've been to the YMCA and swimming was both very good and very frustrating! It seems when I try to do a stroke on my stomach, my brain doesn't communicate with my arms,legs, and hands well at all! I was able to put together a few laps though mainly on my back though! My weights were real good! I'm still just leg pressing 310lbs! Friday will be the day I up it to 325lbs :)!  Lisa came over tonight to get some schooling on her tablet! That was a good idea getting that for her, now she needs my knowledge and I get to spend more qt with the blond babe! Tomorrow I've got hics :)!

11.16.14 after 7.30pm

Tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA for swimming 1st then my weights after! This will be the first time I'm going in this pool by myself! I'm gonna swim laps, that will be my cardio  for this workout then I'm doing my weights! I'll leg press 310lbs again but maybe Wednesday I'll up it to 325 :)! This tbi survivor is feeling great from all this exercise!

11.16.14 after 4.30

I searched this whole place for my laundry card yesterday and kept an eye out for it ever since, nothing! You can purchase a card through the machine to add value  to the card! I just had to figure out how to! Its a matter of sequence! You've gutta press new card 1st then put a $5 bill in the money slot and it spits out a new card! It comes with $3 on it so I added $5 to it! Now to do laundry!

11.16.14 around 9.30am

I seem to have misplaced my laundry card :(! I know last Monday I had it out so my homemaker could do a load! I can remember picking it up off my table and I always put it in the same place in my wallet! This time it's not there:(! I looked all around my apartment, my walker, my scooter, freezer, refrigerator and nothing! That's one reason why I don't like to carry too much value on it so when something unexpected like this happens! I think I've seen I can buy another card at the machine I use to add value to my card. It seems I'm gonna have to purchase another laundry card! It's just a purchase I didn't expect! 

11.15.14 around 7pm

I had some time I wasn't doing much of anything so I booked my trips for this week! I've booked all my trips, scooted to Wg's and forgot most of what I wanted to get! On the positive side my scooter did well! The power gauge did move a bit after I got there but it made it back! I also had to order another "live to ride" ring from baltz jewelry! I somehow lost my last ring and now it cost $12.95! I think I paid $7.95 before, oh well worse things could have happened :)! Now to make some dinna :)!

11.15.14 2.30-3pm

I finally got my act together this morning now I can get going on what I must do! I need to take a scoot to Wg's and get my once a month supplies like toothpaste, deodorant, cologne, protein shakes, and check to see if any meds are ready! I'm a little Leary about my scooter batteries, I'm hopping that yesterday it lost power cause I used it to go to hics! It's had an overnight charge so it should be fine! Its just that these batteries are aftermarket batteries! Aftermarket are never as good as OEM stuff! 

11.15.14 10-10.30am

I've gutta plan my tasks for today! I'm thinking of taking a scoot to Wg's  cause my scooter was causing me some concern about the battery life of the new batteries I just got not too long ago! I had used it to go to hics on Thursday, I came home and plugged in the charger only for about 30mins, started out on my journey to Wg's and my power gauge was fluctuating from full power on down so I just stopped at the store! I've got to be able to make it to Wg's and back cause that's where I get my meds among other things! Today will be a good test for the batteries! I've also at some point get down to Lisa's apartment and work with tablet. Same story,can't connect to a wireless network!There are many in this building but there's just something about the ground, 1st floor that the signal doesn't travel through the floors down the stairs or through the elevator shaft! I know I've got at least one of my devises to connect down there, maybe s…

11.14.14 around 8pm

Today I've had a great workout at the YMCA! I started leg pressing 310 lbs 12 times and I could have done more! I'm well on my way to doing 350 lbs :)! Next Friday I think I'll up it to 325lbs, that's just better than being able to say 320 :)! I got home to a  package outside my door. It was the clevis pin that holds the basket securely on my scooter! It must have come in the snail mail cause the snailman has a key to the building and always puts my packages by my door :)! I think I'm gonna still have something extra helping to hold my basket on! It fell out once before I'm not gonna let it happen a 2nd time! I also paid the rest of my bills for the month! I've got some phone #s to people that move things for the disabled at a lower rate than other movers! I've gutta get my tools from Scituate to Holbrook! I've also gutta start researching getting to Maine to see Darcy! I've gutta concentrate on my tools first though. I do enjoy spending qt with…

11.13.14 around 9pm

Tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA for my strength training! I leg pressed over 300 lbs on Wednesday only like 308 and someone got on the machine after me and said "wow, who's doing 300lbs"! Kinda made me feel good! I think tomorrow I'll up it to 310 and see how that feels. If I can't do 12 controlled reps I'll go back down to 300 but I know I can do 12! My new goal on that machine is 350! That's only because someone told me they did 350! I WON'T be beat :)!

11.13.14 after 7.30pm

I learned an important valuable lesson from one of my fb tbi friends today I even shared her status on my wall! I've got issues understanding people and things like a sales person in a store or a phone call! I've tried in the past saying I  have a traumatic brain injury and the public doesn't understand how a tbi effects survivors! From now on I'm gonna say I'm mentally disabled! I mainly have issues with trying to understand things on the phone! I buy most everything online now and most places have someone to chat with no lines no waiting! I find that to be great! My last purchase online was a small part for my scooter and they had a person come right up on my screen and ask if I want some help! I told them exactly what I needed and they emailed me a part description with a link to order it! They sell parts for scooter though and most likely have a lot of experience with the disabled but lots of places could learn from :)!

11.13.14 5.30-6pm

I got home today and wanted to take a scoot to Wg's! My power gauge started move down so I just stopped at the store! I don't want to think my batteries are starting to fail I just got them not too long ago! It must be cause I just got them less them so I'm gonna think its cause it was at hics all day away from its charger!

11.13.14 after 4.30pm

I had hics today :)KJ gave me the booklet that explains how I can use the MBTA's web site to book a trip using all the MBTA's assets! The subway, "the ride", and  train! I haven't looked at it yet but Darcy, its gonna be a realty I'm gonna go to Maine :)! I've just gutta have KJ do it with me cause I can't make any mistakes!

11.13.14 still around 8am

My head is getting clearer and I've gutta think of what I need to bring with me on today's journey! My I phone is #1! That is packed in my fanny pack 1st! Then I'll get my tablet packed! I'm really not that great with either of those devises yet! I can check my mail with both but I'm not good with an on screen keyboard yet so replying is not something I feel comfortable doing with either devise or blogging yet but I have changed my status on fb with both devises so its just a matter of time before I get comfortable with both! Using my styles  helps out some but I've gutta look into my other options in regards to this issue! Then I want to find a way to network all my devises together :)!

11.13.14 around 8am

I'm having one of those mornings that it's hard to think strait! After sipping my coffee I come to the realization I've got hics today! Then I stop and think so what have I gutta do to get to hics. I've gutta check the web site for "the ride" and get my times. I always create a note in my iphone the night before with my times just in case the web site is down or my account is not working again! This tbi survivor has learned to have a system of checks and double checks then a back up :)!

11.12.14 around 9pm

I finally was able to locate that cleavis pin that holds my rear basket securely on my scooter! I went to a few web sites and I couldn't find it! Then I got directed to and had to explain what part I need then they will mail me the part #!I got the mail and all I had to do was click on the link they gave me then do all my shipping and payment information and I'm done! For this clevis pin that costs around $5,with shipping I ended up paying over $10 for! I was thinking I've gutta book trips to and from home depot and buy a bolt and nut to replace that pin! I'm thinking I may still book rides to hd just to have nuts and bolts! I remember in the back room of hd the had big drums of cheaning supplies! I used to make my own glass cleaner, furniture polish, bathroom cleaner, and rug cleaner! I also made a spray air cleaner! I think I'm gonna again :)!

11.12.14 around 3.50pm

I just got in from the YMCA! I've got to take notice of the times "the ride" gets me back from the YMCA cause today if I was going to hics tonight it wouldn't have worked! I changed my time I go to the YMCA on Wednesday from 1pm to 12pm cause they didn't get me home before my pick up time to go to hics! Now they're having trouble getting me home in time even after that! I worked with KC on getting the times to work but I was gonna try  3.15 pick up time from here to hics and today that wouldn't have worked! Wait, we've got it figured out! I take "the ride" directly to the places I can, 3.15 pick up time for in house events,then an arrival time for 4pm on a van trip and I Won't do the YMCA on those days, geesh!

11.11.14 around 8pm

Dinna was a quick and easy sausage egg and cheese on a English muffin sandwich  again! I needed to do a quick dinna cause I needed to clean all the clutter up in this place cause the new assistant director is coming with KJ tomorrow and I think its very important that he has a good first impression of me and my lifestyle! My place is always clean but its just that I tend to put all the papers and mail that may require my attention  on my love seat next to my desk! The same with my kitchen table! Now I've cleaned them up, I've gutta try and keep them that way now! After KJ tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA to do my weights :)!

11.11.14 around 4.30pm

I had hics today! I'm having my normal issues remembering exactly what went on but I do remember meeting the new assistant director! He seemed like a nice enough person, I didn't speak in length with him though but still I got a positive first impression :)! Tomorrow he in gonna accompany KJ on our home visit! For some reason whenever a new staff starts they always  come to where ever I'm living for a first home visit! Many of the current staff came to either Scituate or here for their 1st! I guess me being me I can only take that in a positive way! Kind of like a success story! Here I am, a survivor of a severe traumatic brain injury living successfully totally independently! :)  

11.11.14 around 8.30 am

I got an email from UPS that states I'm getting a delivery tomorrow! I've got the YMCA to go to tomorrow and I missed Monday so this is very important! I've gutta ask Lisa if she's gonna be home if so  print a note  to ups saying "if #30 you get no answer ring #16! I don't want this ripped off!

11.10.14 after 7pm

I spoke with Lisa and it wasn't her who dropped my basket outside my door! I wish the hardware store right next to this place didn't close down. Then I could go there and fit a bolt and nut to the basket and frame! Now I've just jury rigged a piece of a plastic hanger on there but I'm gonna need more maybe I'll strap one of my bungee cords around it too! I get involved in these things and forget, holy crap, I gutta make some dinna :) !

11.10.14 after 3pm

I got my basket back but the pin that holds it on securely also must have fallen out hence why the basket fell off! I'm sure I can rig something to hold it on like a coat hanger or something! I've gutta get my tools here from Scituate then my jury rigging will be so much easier!

11.10.14 around 2.30pm

A  great thing just happened as I was leaving to scoot to the store! I had lost my bigger basket that goes on the back of my scooter on one of my many scoots to the store! I open my door today and it's right there :)! Someone must have found it that lives in the building, the only one who knew was Lisa! She did say she would continue to look for it when she comes and goes from here! It's probably a safe bet it was her! What a great friend!She land lines me everyday to see if I need anything and also to make sure I'm okay! That's why I try to be equally as good of a friend to her and try to lift her out of this awful depression she is dealing with! My scoot to the store was a good scoot:)!

11.10.14 around 10.30am

There is so much information I must be able to process on a daily basis its a wonder this tbi survivor not only can do it but keep track of what I did! I was going to the YMCA but then realized I needed something at the store .With daylight savings time gone now its really not a good idea to scoot anywhere in the dark, its not safe! I was faced with a decision this morning, todays plans were, YMCA then my homemaker at 4pm! Then something unexpected comes up, needing an item at the store! Then I've  got to think of whats more important, prioritize what is needed more! My homemaker is washing my bed sheets today and doing the rest of my laundry, which really needs to be done so that's a priority, I've got hics tomorrow so no time to scoot tomorrow so although going to the gym is important for my health I decided that would be the trip I cancel today! I'm running low on funds in my checking account too so I've also get to take that into consideration! My balance on my…

11.9.14 after 8.30pm

Dinna may have been late but it sure was tasty and protein filled! Two jimmy dean sausage egg and cheese on English muffin sandwiches :)! I need the protein cause tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA for swimming and my weights :)! This time I'm just going right in and swimming laps! Allie said she will be there but this is to show her what I want to do! I'm swimming laps so that is also my cardio for this workout! Then I'll do my weights! I'm gonna really concentrate on if I can go up on weight on all machines :)! 

11.9.14 7-8 pm

I waited until after 5pm to check to see if I had funds on my laundry card, bad move! I needed to add funds to this I've only gutta scoot over to the office but its dark out! I think no big deal, there  are lights all over. On my way up the ramp to get to the building I hit a bump and tipped over :(! I picked myself back up and all the things I carry in my scooter, mainly just a remote that opens the front doors to my building! Then went to the machine to add $10 to my laundry card. Nothing is ever easy in this tbi survivors life! Now I'm cooking a late dinna again!

11.9.14 around 3pm

Lisa called this morning not feeling well (that time) so we didn't go to church today :(! I'm not doing my laundry today cause my homemaker is doing my bed sheets tomorrow and I have her do whatever else I've got. I'm way to thrifty to use my laundry card when it all can be done at the same time! I've been able to do a good trim job on my beard That can be a bit of a challenge for me. I've gutta stand in front of the mirror in my bathroom and utilize my right hand and we all know what a challenge it is to use my right hand for anything! Like anything that presents a challenge to me I work to get the better of the specific challenge! I will not let this brain injury beat me!

11.9.14 7.30-8am

I'm up kind of early on a Sunday morning but that's cause I've still gutta do my normal tasks before I go to church with Lisa! I feel lately my intelligence has been questioned (insulted) by some and that really bothers me! I believe as well as anyone who has taken the time to get to know the "new me" that my brain injury affected me more physically than cognitively! I've still got some cognitive  issues but I've found a way to work with them! I resent when individuals insult my intelligence! Sure my reasoning may not be quite up to par yet but I've got the ability to think things through and make the right decision 90% of the time! Please don't insult my intelligence!

11.8.14 after 8pm

I'm so happy my online account with "the ride" got fixed! I booked all my trips for next week online tonight! Now I can enjoy tomorrow without any worries! Lisa said she will meet me downstairs at 10.25am!

11.8.14 after 4.45pm

Peapod came and delivered my order at 12.30-1pm! I not only had issues finding freezer space but finding homes for most everything else! I've gutta take some time in a little while and organize my freezer! Now what I couldn't get in the freezer is in the fridge! I also took a scoot to Wg's and picked up the med that was ready for me, did a trash run too! What's really bothering me now, to be honest pissing me off, is not having my right hand do what I think so hard for it to do! This has got to be one of the most frustrating things I try and deal with every day! I really can't hold anything with my right hand! I've got to use my left hand if Ive got to do anything tedious like even using scissors my right hand fights me all the way through the task!  

11.7.14 after 8.30pm

I've been to the YMCA today and had a great workout! I worked with Greg and he did a great job getting the machines ready for me! Tonight Lisa and I ordered out for dinna then watched a great movie on pay per view! "Haven's for Real", this is a great flick! This was about a pastor's young son who had a near death experience. Many of the things in this looked the same as I experienced in mine! The smoke all over the ground reminds me of all the ground fog I saw! Being  taken around by angels like my men with long grey hair and beards that were the angels that lead me around! Tomorrow I gutta scoot to Wg's cause I got a land line saying a med was ready to be picked up!

11.7.14 after 9.30am

Today I'm going to the YMCA to do my weights :) ! I'm still leg pressing just 300lbs I think Monday I'll increase that to just 310lbs! I want to make sure I can do 12 controlled repetitions cause its important to do my resistance training the right way! This is now my full time job, working on ME :)! Then tonight, I think Lisa and I are gonna order out for dinna then watch a movie on pay per view here on my 52 inch flat panel super tv! Working on me then spending qt with a gorgeous blond,  not bad planning :)!   

11.6.14 after 8.30pm

At hics today we had two representatives from the brain injury association of Mass speak to us about falls and how to prevent them from happening! Most is common sense! Try to make your living space as clutter free as possible. They also  talked about exercises to do to improve your balance! I know I'm doing everything possible to progress in my journey with traumatic brain injury! I don't know of any other 56 year young men that work as hard as I do on their health! I go to the gym three times a week and swim laps one time! My exercising I believe is keeping my cholesterol level good too! That's what I'm doing tomorrow, I'm going to the YMCA to do my weights :)!    

11.6.14 around 8.30am

I've got hics today :)! For some reason I can't stop thinking about a group we had where we talked about male case managers vs female! With me the best and worst were males! JB was by far the worst and DM was the best! JB was a bad judge of character among many other things he just didn't fit! DM was a great judge! He learned very quickly how to help a survivor progress!He saw I was going no where living in Scituate and he found where I am now and worked with me to get my freedom :)! 

11.5.14 after 8.30pm

 I just got in and got my snail mail and there was something from AARP life insurance! I've been accepted to receive coverage :)! The only thing they require is to join AARP! I think the benefits of joining far exceed the yearly fee though! For $100,000 benefit it will cost me about $100. a month and for $50.000 it will be around $50.00 a month! I'm gonna have to let KJ look it all over so I do everything right and I'm understanding everything! Everything is starting to come together in my new life :)! Oh today KJ was over for a home visit then I went to the YMCA and had a fabulous workout then had Chinese food out with hics! I was laughed at by one person that I know of when I said I'm gonna get life insurance! Well in your face! 

11.5.14 after 10.15am

KJ has been over and the one thing I need to remember is there is a list of people that move things for the disabled and do it at a less expensive rate than other moving company's. I've gutta get my tools from Scituate to here ! That is one thing I should be able to get some funds from the trust for!

11.4.14 around 8pm

Tomorrow I'm going to the YMCA! This is important cause I couldn't go on Monday cause I had to recertify my housing! I've gutta work extra hard cause I missed Monday but I'm no slacker when it comes to working on me :)! Then I'm gonna go to the China Jade restaurant in N.Quincy Mass! I'm looking forward to some crab rague and some rice with lobster sauce all through it  :)! I think we NEED a karaoke night too:)! 

11.4.14 after 6.30pm

I had hics today but, I haven't got a clue as to what we did! I believe we had a regular day with groups of current issues, social something and I think JR talked with us about something! Maybe it will come to me later but right now it's lost in my Bermuda triangle like brain! The information goes in to never be found again! I'm not that bad anymore though! I'm sure if I put my best effort forward I can search my brain and come up with bits and pieces of what transpired :)!   

11.3.14 after 6.30pm

At last count I've gotten over 59 birthday wishes on fb :) ! Thanks to all who took the time to wish me a happy Bd! It's a little overwhelming that so many people have taken the time to wish me a happy birthday! It was because all of you that I've had a great day! Lisa was over a little while ago and she gave me a bd present! Two small jar candles and a box of peanut butter chocolate brownies! Smelly shit and tasty shit, she knows what I like :)!  

11.3.14 after 5pm

While I was at the office I mentioned to  the manager I think my smoke detector needs a battery! Less than 1hr later maintenance was here to change it! I also saw the program director from hics there too! It seems another survivor from hics is applying to live here! That will make three, whoever  that is, Susan, and me! My homemaker has been here as well! I've been to D&D's and met Lisa there and had lunch together! Now I gutta think about making some dinna :)!

11.3.14 around 1pm

I just got in from my recertification meeting at the office. This time it was quicker than last cause all my information is the same! They didn't say my rent is gonna increase either! I thought when I recertified in the past, my rent increased too! I'm not complaining though! It makes sense though, my income didn't increase so my rent shouldn't. Lisa just called and asked if I wanted to do D&D's! My homemaker is coming at 4pm but its only 1pm now! I think I'm gonna go :). 

11.3.14 after 9.15am

The value I added to my ride account was recognized by the MBTA finally  so I was able to book trips to and from the China Jade Chinese restaurant in N.Quincy Ma for Wednesday night's dinna and planning! That is so important to me cause I want to urge all the survivors to have a karaoke night!Then I can preform my rendition of Billy Ideol's "white wedding" and try a whitesnake tune too :)!  

11.3.14 after 8.30am

Well its official as of 10.30am I'm in my late 50's! I will be 56 years young! I don't feel that old, maybe you are only as old as you feel. Today I've gutta go to the office here to recertify my housing! Its just a matter of signing a bunch of documents and proving my  income and expenses! Last year Anne and I went online to Citizens bank online and just printed out a copy of my bank statement which showed my income cause of direct deposit and all my many expenses!

11.1.14 after 8pm

I keep monitoring my checking keeping in mind I've got to leave about $120.00 cause I paid my dell bill! I've got quicken installed on my desktop, I really should start using it! I still need some things at Wg's but they're  not worth getting soaked for! Who knows though, they say rain but it could end up being a nice day, this is New England after all !

11.1.14 around 10.30am

Today I've gutta get to the store before it starts raining out! I tried watching the weather channel but the local weather doesn't seem to be coming on! I could be missing it though! I just know I had best get my ass in gear or have a soaking scoot! I need to get a quart of 2%milk! I'm thinking of making my cheesy mashed potatoes ! I don't like the potato masher I got from Walmart, too flimsy! Lisa said she has a normal one that I can use :)! 

10.31.14 around 10pm

I started booking my trips for next week and noticed I'm gonna have to add more funds to me account! My checking account is getting low and I don't want to transfer money from my savings yet! I usually wait until my rent is withdrawn from my checking to do that! I did book all of them except for Wednesday rec trips! The MBTA should recognize the funds I added on Monday! I've gutta call to book that trip anyway cause it's not in my destinations! I've just gutta remember I've gutta do it! I'm not at all concerned about that at all! I've actually got a great memory! I'm told all the time by non-brain injured people that my memory is better than theirs :)!