wondering mind

With the passing of Wayne,I wonder why I'm still here!In 1980 I broke my neck,2nd cervical vertebrate,all I had to do is sneeze and I would have passed or be a quad!I was in a coma for 3.5 months from a traumatic brain injury!Ive had a malignant growth on my prostrate(cancer)!I guess the old three strikes and your out doesn't apply here!My mind just keeps on asking why!Believe me I'm not complaining one bit!I'm just a little confused but,I guess that normal,for me!