Jamie's Blog

I've taken a ride to Wg's and I forgot to get light bulbs there! I needed to also stop at the store so I asked the clerk if they had some. I'm dealing with foreigners there so he didn't understand what I was saying, after performing a little skit he understood! I was able to purchase them there but they were expensive there! $5 for four 75 watt bulbs! At least I'm not in the dark! I should start working on putting the belt in my vacuum head but neuro fatigue is setting in now! For me to do any tasks where I'm using my brain which is all tacks neuro fatigue sets in too quickly! I've now made my afternoon pot of coffee I'm thinking maybe that will give me the get up and go to make dinna.  

I got up and it seems my left shoulder is causing some pain :(! I was starting my normal routine today at the same time trying to process all the stuff that went down yesterday at my meeting with MRC! What I can remember is 1st I must have a neuropsych exam done! Its been years since my last one and that was when JB was my case manager and he wasn't a good cm at all, saved nothing and I'm sure I gave a copy to him! I've gutta get to changing the drive belt on my vacuum head too! Most important of today's tasks is to take a ride to Wg's and get my needs for the upcoming week!

Today I'm gonna meet with MRC (Mass rehab com.) to start working with them on getting my tail out there working! I've realized I do need to get a job. I'm living very well on SSDI so I don't need the money but I do need something to do that I like, that stimulates my brain, and I'll be good at! KJ is gonna meet me at the place in Braintree Mass. I think I could handle things myself but this being very important to my future, I asked KJ to accompany me to this meeting! I may not be the brightest light in the lamp but sometimes it flickers brighter than all the others :)!

I've been exchanging emails with Janet, the property manager here, and I've got a brain injury support group I'm gonna run on 5/17 at 7pm! Now I gutta start making up flyers and distribute them to all buildings! Lisa will help with the distribution :)!

I think I've been real busy today! I think it started with a home visit from KJ but I'm having difficulty finding that in my injured brain. I went to hics tonight and we played singgo! Like bingo but you gutta listen to a song and you have a paper with song names on it like a bingo card and you get 4 in a row and win! We all had a blast playing this! Tomorrow I'm meeting hics at the Big Apple circus in Boston :)!

I've been to hics today :)! One group "mood management" we talked about the moods you get in after suffering a traumatic brain injury! Anger was the 1st mood we discussed! I was angry with myself! This survivor got himself impaired and hopped on two wheels! The biggest and dumbest mistake I ever could have made! Then we talked about how we got rid or over this anger. For me it was starting blogging! I found I could release a lot of anger by hitting these keys on the keyboard sometimes HARD! That's not the hardest thing I've had to deal with living with tbi! The hardest thing has been and everyday is the loss of self! 

This survivor is exhausted! I saw my podiatrist this morning, had the driver on the return trip drop me off at the store then scooted home to get ready for my homemaker. It got to be around 2.30pm and didn't think one was gonna show so I had to do laundry, but I couldn't find my laundry card, np  I'll just buy a new card! After fighting the machine to take a $10 bill I find out it only takes $5 bills for cards! I scooted home thinking how I'm gonna do laundry now! I stop and check my snail male and inside my mail box was my laundry card! I checked to see if it had any value on it, only had fifty cents so back to the office to have another battle with the machine then do laundry! The good thing is I got all my laundry done today :)!